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Saturday, April 26, 2008

spilling this out

I never thought
it was going to be told yesterday
how rush
thank God it was not
such lies to tell everything gonna be ok
I have fallen so deep
how far will it go?
the hourglass is counting for a time
that I hope won't come

Sunday, April 13, 2008

kangeen Labschool (Kebayoran)!

oh God, I miss my Labschool!

Tadi gw UTUL UGM di Labschool Rawamangun (padahal ngebetnya di labsky, smp gw dulu) dan ya ampuuun, I miss the coziness of private high school. Yaah lo bayangin aja laah, the plants are well-cared, di mana-mana ada kursi panjang gitu, di lapangannya ada kursi buat nonton olahraga, KAMAR MANDI yg bersih (dan khas labschool, keramiknya putih kuning) aaaa!! And more, pas masuk kelas, ya ampuun, AC 3 berjejer (tapi ga terlalu dingin), gorden yang kuning krem gitu, trus papan absensi, LOKER, oh my, oh shoot, gw pengen skul di situ lagii!
Tapi sama temen-temen gw sekarang, hehe...

Kebetulan tadi pas jalan pulang naek busway (Yeah, gw dan Qory naek busway untuk pertama kalinya! Dua orang dari sekian banyak masyarakat Jakarta yang naek busway untuk pertama kalinya hari itu) terus gw ngobrol berdua sama Jatu, ngomongin education and all, salah satu topiknya sekolah swasta dan sekolah negeri. Kebetulan Jatu juga smp-nya swasta, jadi ngerasain hal yang sama ky gw.

Yang gw omongin sama Jatu tadi tuh kira-kira gini...
Pertama, guru-gurunya yang ga enak, ngajar aja setengah-setengah, ngaco abis dah, bandingkan dgn guru swasta yg ngajar enak, friendly sm anak-anak. Di negeri tuh gw bener-bener ngandelin bimbel dah, kalo ga bimbel paling les privat...
Kedua, mental anak-anaknya yang males dan nyontek (yang sedikit-banyak nular ke gw juga). Bukannya gw ga gitu dulu, tapi di negeri tuh klo ulangan, nyontek bener-bener buat ngisi soal, alias ga belajar. Sedangkan di swasta dlu nyontek paling yang bener-bener ga bisa aja...
Ketiga, kebersihan kelas, kamar mandi, kantin. Yaa ini sih bukan cuma gara-gara tukang bersihnya kurang banyak, tapi mental anak-anak juga gitu...
Keempat, di negeri gw bisa ketemu all kinds of society. Dari yang kurang beruntung, sedang, ampe yg tajir gila. Nahh, ini nih yg bikin gw suka skul negeri, secara ga langsung kita dituntut jadi lebih tenggang rasa dan sederhana. Cliche it may sounds, but true. Dan otomatis pergaulan dan pengetahuan lw jadi luas.
Sementara di swasta semua setara: tajir dan begajulan. Kasarnya, pilihan lw di swasta cuma 2, jadi kuper ato jadi anak gahull. Ya gak salah juga sih jadi gaul begitu, toh mampu dan gak nyusain orangtua.

Cuma yaa, entahlah, kalo ada yang nanya, enakan di labskul ato 78, mengutip kata temen seperjuangan gw 14 taun, "Sekolahnya enak di Labsky, tapi temen-temennya yang di 78," which is a statement I couldn't agree more. Lebih bahagia di sini. Haha...

Mm, apa lagi ya? Oh ya, gw pertama kali naek kendaraan umum sendiri tuh pas klas X (Gilaa lo miin!) Begitu pula dengan naek motor, ditebengin pertama kali sama si petir, tanggal berapa ya tuuh? Senin 11 Desember 2006, abis u.blok, inget bgt gw. Terus naek ojek pertama kali juga pas ke ofren, bimbel gw. Kayaknya kehidupan per-kendaraan umum-an gw dimulai di sma. Gatau kenapa yaa, tapi daripada naek angkot, gw prefer jalan kaki kalo ga terlalu jauh, hehe...

Udah ah, UN tinggal H-9, ayoo semangat belajar!

Monday, April 07, 2008

suasana hati

Tanggal 31 kemarin gigiku tanggal 2 buah. Hehe. Love that line.

Lalu tanggal 1 kemarin dia ulang tahun dan dikerjain temen-temennya.
Haha. Sumpaah ga tega abis gw ngeliat dia digituin. Tapi sukses juga ngerjain+bikin surprise buat dia. Ahahahaa :)) Finally the bad atmosphere was being paid by that moment. Makasiih temen" ofren sayang, begitu juga dengan mba ambar.

Hm, hasil NTU udah keluar, dan gw ga diterima. I feel okay, at least gw pernah ngerasain tes begituan.Kali dipikir-pikir, I was such a loser. Gw selalu berhasil lolos seleksi pertama, tapi di seleksi kedua gw gagal. Damn sucks.

Dari dulu slaluu gitu.
Gw ngerasain ini pertama kali pas tes beasiswa SMA ke Singapura. Gw lolos seleksi rapor, tapi gagal di seleksi tes. Ga bener-bener gagal, gw dapet Merit Award or something, intinya ga bener-bener beasiswa, jadi ga gw ambil.
Kedua, pas AFS. Lolos seleksi tertulis, tapi gagal di wawancara.
Ketiga, ya NTU ini. Lolos seleksi rapor, tapi gagal di tes.

Yah, kalo dipikir-pikir itu semua ke luar negeri. Maybe it's not my destiny to be there now.

Oh ya... Makin ke sini makin males belajar, betul ga? Setidaknya gw mikir kayak gitu. Banyak games seruu-di hp ataupun komputer-yang sialan abis. Bikin males belajar um. Abisan, kalo gw keterima toh gw ga bakal ngambil... Dan males karena faktor x lain.

Gw lagi kepikiran,
Gimana caranya motivasi orang buat belajar???

comment please.

*blog yang ga nyambung sama judulnya

Saturday, March 22, 2008

exam-minded head

Yesterday and the day before yesterday, I awoke with the same dream theme: examinations. Crazy, I say. Am I that freak out about UN?
This week is quite tiring with UN try out on Monday to Wednesday, but the long weekend is great, even though I don't go out of town or something. Some of TO results had been printed, and mine is quite satisfying.

Jujur, gw rada sebel sama temen" gw yang masiiiih aja nyontek pas TO gini. Pity, you lose a chance to know your capacity. Call me a hypocrite. No offense, tapiii... Ya gitu deh. Gw sendiri juga nanya-nanya pas biologi, dan setelah gw pikir-pikir rugi juga...

Anyway by the way, tadi gw jalan menggunakan mobil. Again, I saw beggars and sellers on the street. Gw bingung aja, tukang jualan itu kan udah usaha, sayangnya aja barang jualannyakurang diminati, tapi tadi nyokap gw malah ngasih ke ibu-ibu pengemis gitu. Maksud gw di sini, ironis banget kan, yang udah usaha malah ga dapet uang, yang cuma minta-minta malah dapet... Bayangin aja kalo semua pedagang asongan itu berpindah jadi pengemis, kayak gimana coba??

Oh ya... Baru-baru ini gw tes NTU di Kanisius Menteng. Gilaa, yang senasib seperjuangan sama gw+dita+ihsan itu sipit dan putih semua. Astaga. Udah gitu soalnya astaghfirullah bgt, minta digatak. Complex number, Argand diagram, and all. Lupa rumus pula. Gw emang ga belajar keras buat ini, tapi buat ugm-un-spmb harus!

Belakangan ini gw lagi suka jazz, yg rada-rada funk macam Ari, Andezzz. Anyone has Parkdrive? Mau dong gw. Dan yang punya jazz kayak gini, whoever the singer is, bagi-bagi gw ya ;)

upcoming schedule:
study study study!

off people.

Thursday, December 06, 2007

It's over yet it's started again

"All ending are beginnings. We just don't know it at the time..."
The Five People You Meet in Heaven, Mitch Albom

hihi. No, it's not an ending of anything, really. I happen to love this tagline so much. Yah, bukan ending juga sih. Ending of an examination, in this case, UAS. Yey! Akhirnya selese juga ni uas. Kalo dipikir-pikir ni ulangan juga another-bloc-test, bedanya sekarang gw udah mulai nyadar waktu, kalo waktu gw tinggal dikit di sma, means, 3-4 bulan lagi UN, 6-7 bulan lagi SPMB, juga waktu seneng-seneng berkurang.

Yap. Bedaaa banget sama dulu. Jaman kelas X-XI sih ujian ya jalanin aja. Belajar juga H-1 ulangan, pake sistem kebut semalem pula. Pas ulangan, kerjain, nanya-nanya dikit, (khusus Mandarin dpt sms tentunya), selese! Tugas apalagi, yang penting ngumpulin deh.

Sekarang?
Clearly not as easy as it was in tenth and eleventh grade. Bisa aja sih gw ngejalanin ky gitu, tapi ga bisa aja. Setelah nyadar semua itu, jadi lebih alert. It makes big difference, you know. Jadi lebih rajin, for sure. Mandarin gw kerjain sendiri loh. Tp tetep dpt contekan. Tanpa gw sadari gw juga lebih ngeforsir diri gw, yang kayaknya rada bikin stres. Puasa baca novel+majalah+maen capcus. Makanya pas selese, it was a big Hooray!

That's the ending. The beginning? Start studying all over again. 10th grade and 11th grade lessons. Whoa. Banyak banget.


Hehe. Akhirnya 6 Desember 2007.
1 tauuun! ^_^
Ayey! Makan lasagna bareng. Dibawain cake. Dikasih kaos lucu. Love you!

takecare people. pada update dong :)

Thursday, October 18, 2007

holiday(s)

Fasting went without any significant obstacle. And it was fun, a lot of break-fasting to attend, including my elementary school break-fasting. And there we have it, Ied Fitr! Yup, Happy Ied Fitr for those who celebrate, and I humbly ask you to forgive my mistakes.

This year was kinda different for me, to remind that there are 90 numbers of Mathematic homework, Biology, and Arts. Yup, Arts. And not to forget I still have to do the chores, since our maids have been gone to their hometown. It's OK, really, just wondering how am I suppose to do the homework(S) and chores?

Yeah, and now starting to think about SPMB. I'm sort of boring being asked, "mau kuliah di mana?"
Feel the same?
And yet people keep telling me to go to Faculty of Medicines. As if it were easy. At least I knew where to go if I were about to choose that faculty.

Objective: Teknik Lingkungan ITB!
amin...

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

tujuh bale :D

yup, long time no post. basi banget ya blog gw.

Yes, finally I'm 17. I can have my own ID card, Driver License... Oops, did I say can? I mean, I should bring my own ID card, and unfortunately I cannot drive :(

Actually there's nothing special in this occasion, but I'm just so happy with all the birthday wishes and presents that I've got. Well, just wanna say thanks to everyone. Love you guys :)